new clothes for an old body

Well True is 10 weeks old and I have been able to wear my old clothes since he was 3 weeks.
Now this is not amazing to me because I wasn't tiny to begin with, and I worked real hard to not gain much weight. I gained 18 pounds and lost another 8 by the time he was 3 weeks. So I thought it was time to get some new shirts because I was able to wear most of my regular clothes {shirts,leggings and skirts} right up till the end.
People have been all a buzz about this H&M store, so we took a little trip down there last night.
Yes it was inexpensive- I bought a zip up hoodie and 4 shirts for about $60 bucks.
Yes it was crazy clothes - some things that I'm sure must have been left over from the 80s.
No it wasn't any Ann Taylor Loft- which really is my all time favorite.
But most of all it was scary in the dressing room. Not because I just had a baby- which is scary all in it's self, but because I felt like I was in the 360* mirror from what not to wear. I couldn't get done fast enough!
And another thing- you must not wear a bra size bigger than say a double D.... because the shirts only go up to size 12, and if you want to actually read any of the words on the shirt your trying on you might need a 14 or 16. But overall, it was o.k. And I came home with a cute shirt that has a big heart made out of words that says True Love, at first I thought it said 'I love True' and that's what made me try it on. So it wasn't bad. I can't complain, I went looking for shirts to cover my ' Oprah' arms as I call them, and I found 5 items to do the job! And all for a good price!

btw- I would post pictures, but my card reader is broken, and I'm waiting for my new one to come in from Ballard Camera. :)

it's like a scene from Hitch

So just imagine that scene from HITCH where he is allergic to the food and swells up like a puffer fish.
Well that's me.
I have a MRSA staph infection- which they have been treating for 6 days with a mixture of two sulfur based drugs, well it took six days but i finally had an allergic reaction to them. saturday night my skin got spotty like a heat rash that itched. the consulting nurse said to stop the drugs, and come in in the morning if it was worse.
well fine and dandy. can't take anything for the itch, because i'm nursing. cold baking soda bath was about it.
sunday i woke up covered in blotchy red patches, swollen lips and ears and a fever. time to hit the hospital again. joy.
pretty bad when one of the hospital workers recognizes you.
a shot in the hip started the process of relief.

i'm trying to be optimistic but it's tough when the list of problems continues.
so far i've had to deal with-
1 missed staple,
my incision opening,
true getting MRSA,
uterus infection,
me getting MRSA,
one extra week of bed rest,
one more week of no driving,
allergic reaction to drugs that shouldn't be prescribed together under any circumstance.

all i can say is pray for me. the dr said that if my staph infection comes back we will likely do ivs every 12 hours for how ever long. at least it will be gone.
wish me luck, i'm signing out.

precious moments

john made me this coat holder sometime ago.
nothing fancy- just something that fits perfectly in the space.
made of an old window from Paige's house, and old miss matched glass door knobs i rummaged for at Bernie's antiques.
I just noticed this morning how cute chastins zinger sweatshirt is hanging next to a sweet princess sweater, and a baby coat.
it's surreal to me. i have 3 kids. that are all mine.

Here's what happens when mom's not paying attention...

The little girl plays with the big girls make up....

Giant Gummy Grin

per my hubby's request....{so he can show off how cute true is!}

taken at six weeks old

the wise cracks start

So my 30 something nephew came over yesterday for the first time
says to Chastin "so when is false coming?"
hardy har har...

5 weeks in

So True is 5 weeks {Wow how time flies!!!}
and as you might guess I am really tired
yet REALLY happy!
I've waited for this little man for a few years
and I am really glad he is here

So Alex has my card reader so I can't upload any new pictures, but I didn't want you all to think I had fallen off the face of the earth.

Kelly had a beautiful over the top shower for True and me on Saturday and I wanted to thank everyone who came. Some of you drove from really far away to meet True and show us your love. I came home with 10 big packs of diapers! Some really cute outfits, a cute book and a picture frame with True's picture already in it! Kelly made me a diaper cake that I still have sitting on a cake stand in my living room, she also gave me his name in block letters that I have displayed in my living room. She decorated so much, it was crazy cute! All Valentines Day- to celebrate TRUE love, how perfect was that! I'll post pictures as soon as possible. { who really knows how long that will be with a new born} I have however been writing in my journal every chance I get. I am hoping not to miss a single detail of this time.
I have been reassured many times over the last few weeks that people love me, and I should listen to those wise ones. I was 'crying' to John the night before my shower that maybe all of Kelly's work would be in vain, that maybe no would would show up for my shower... but as the shower rolled on more and more friends and family showed up, and the friends that were already there said 'see how many people love you', so shame on me for doubting. My apologies.
So many friends have been so helpful to me and my family, and not only helpful, but friendly.
Knowing that I can't drive for another 2 weeks, friends have taken me to the mall to walk around and pick up some things I needed. Friends and family have picked me up lunch, diet cokes, brought me lunch to sit and share with them, taken my kids to do all sorts of fun activities, held my baby so I could fold laundry & shower, let me come sit at their house so I can just get out for a little while, called me to chat and see how I was. Thank you to all of you. You have taught me to be more compassionate. I have learned that I need to help my friends more when they have just had a baby, more than just bringing dinner.
So anyhow, True smiles now when we click our tongue at him- it is super cute.
He knows the difference between day and night, {more so when to sleep},
and loves to sleep on anyone who will hold him. {he's sleeping on daddy right now}
He is such a joy to have in our family, and the kids are always asking to hold him. I love that they love him that much. Thanks for reading my ramblings.

p.s- does anyone have a sling i can borrow? i go back to work tuesday and think it would be helpful for some nursing times.